Monday, July 31, 2006
9:29 PM
Welcome. I just feel like crap now. Ok?
Me: "Im harbouring unforgiveness right now.. not supposed to.. but i am.."
I: "Why?! Don't, its unhealthy.."
Me: "I mean, dont you feel the lethargy of releasing mercy and having that taken for granted.. of keep having to brush off insensitve comments which obviously displays absence of brain usage..Hey, here's a suggestion, why dont we explode into fury and engulf them in our wrath..come on i haven't got the chance to direct a movie rated graphic gore and explicit violence.."
I: "huh....we must abstain from inflicting physical pain on others..no no..man move mouth dont move hand.."
Me: "Did i sense a tweak of weakness there? for a moment there our heart felt like cushion.. yes those feather-filled ones"
trust me, im not ok
The blanket of clouds sure proved to be a wet one this morning, late as usual but what proved to be more mood drenching was being called up by the discipline master who knighted me "Sir Late Coming King"
Chairman was being a nice sport by guiding me to the office.. seriously i think he's a nice person and i can emphatise with his plight of being the middle man..Not fun being in those shoes of his, having to deal with the oxygen-less altitudes of expectations from higher authority, while ensuring that the scales of metting out disciplinary action on havockers like me while sustaining a reasonable friendship with the class will not tip.. Other than the unnecessary lashing of tongues you have my salute man..
I have to hold my ground, and turn these negative verbal assaults and brain matter of inferiority into a motivational thruster.. i might not be strong enough, but God you are.. I will shine up there not glimmer and choke out below..i'll prove the world wrong and prove my Lord right!
Here's a reminder to myself: why seek glory in the eyes of man, when you can seek glory in the eyes of God..
I wont care what they think about me..Its my style and i want it that way..
everyday, YOU make me stronger -`